Fat to Fit @ 57 – Day Four

Today was much better than yesterday. While I didn’t make it to the gym this morning due to a night fraught sleep interruptions, I did get my walk in, and I did not completely sabotage my diet. Me – 1, temptation – 0.

I have a very bad habit of skipping breakfast and lunch. I’ve never been much of a breakfast eater. There is something unsettling about eating before 10 AM. I enjoy breakfast as much as the next guy, maybe more, but I have no appetite whatsoever in the morning. Now, after 10, especially on weekends, I’m all about the All-American breakfast of bacon, eggs, hashed brown potatoes, and toast. Not a whole lot better than that.

As for lunch, I love lunch. I even take great lunches to work. The problem is, I get so busy at work that, before I know it, it’s 4 PM and I’ve yet to eat. That is not good for losing weight. I get home from work, and all I can think about is what I can grab to eat really quickly. Invariably, what is quickly available is the not healthy, as my behavior earlier this week has shown.

So, my goal for tomorrow and Friday is to eat lunch at lunchtime. I should try to stomach something for breakfast, but I have not quite figured out what that should be. I make The Spouse a very yummy protein shake every morning. I have thought of having one of those myself, but I’m allergic to bananas, and a protein shake just isn’t that good without a banana. So, I will probably test a few options. I try to avoid gluten as much as possible, so cereal or oatmeal just doesn’t cut it, even though I love oatmeal. I’m thinking a nice bowl of fruit maybe some yogurt. But that really does not sound appetizing before 10 AM.

I have to start getting a good night’s sleep. Failure to do so keeps me from going to the gym. I really enjoyed lifting yesterday, and I don’t want to miss again. But if I don’t get at least seven hours of sleep, I can get up at 5 AM. I have considered taking melatonin, but I am such a lightweight. That stuff knocks me out and I am groggy all morning. maybe I’ll try some Sleepytime tea or valerian or something. I just read the other day that getting six hours or fewer of sleep a night increases your risk of stroke by 50%. Yikes! There are a lot of night I barely get five hours of sleep. I need to change that.

So – tonight I had a big salad with some flat iron steak cut up on it, and half of an avocado. I also had about three fourths of a cup of rice and some focaccia bread.

You do notice the lack of flaming hot Cheetos in that list, right? My subconscious is applauding me. That is an even more impressive feat considering I have some of those Cheetos right here in the house. Now, if I can make it another 20 minutes without downing something calorie laden, I will have done quite well today.

Tomorrow, the gym for sure.

Fat to Fit @ 57 – Day Three, part 2

UPDATE: I did fine while at work, and did my 2.3 mile brisk walk at lunch. The problem is what takes place when I get home. I am usually a little hungry, and it’s never for the good stuff. Fortunately, I don’t have much in the way of bad stuff in the house. My indiscretion tonight was about 2.5 ounces of Swiss cheese and about ten Ritz crackers. I did down several glasses of water, and ate some of the vegetables I had blended up for the dogs, so that helped to fill me up quickly and keep me from eating all the Skinny Cow ice cream bars in the freezer. My subconscious was simultaneously applauding my restraint and chastising my transgression. She is quite the annoying little thing.

Tomorrow brings another day of strength training, and hopefully, lunchtime walking, providing it doesn’t rain, I need to learn to drink a ton of water before I leave work so I’m full when I get home. I’ll test that tactic tomorrow.

Fat to Fit @ 57 – Day Three

I have a confession to make. Yesterday, I really, really blew it with my eating. It started with the chocolate chip oatmeal cookies at work. But then I had a nice spinach and grilled chicken breast salad for lunch, so I was not too far off course. But when I got home, something went very wrong. First, I had a few Flamin’ Hot Cheetos. Not too many – a serving. But I was craving something, and I didn’t know what it was. So, off I went into a full-fledged binge, trying to satisfy that craving. I had Fritos, a Trio bar, which is a delicious nut and seed bar that is healthy but has a lot of calories, then more Cheetos, and finally, several large spoonfuls of peanut butter. By that time, my craving was still unsatisfied, but there was nothing else I could stuff down my throat quickly. What the heck is wrong with me? I made The Spouse’s dinner – a nice grilled porterhouse steak and salad – and put together a salad for myself. Thankfully, that capped my eating for the day. Maybe it was a last chance binge, my subconscious keenly aware that I have every intention of purging those Renton foods from my house today. Whatever the reason, I’m over it. But I had to confess it. I want to share my successes as well as my transgressions, because I know how hard this journey is for all of us. I am not going to sugar coat my struggles and pretend this is an easy journey. It’s damned difficult.

Today I DID get up – not at 5:00 AM, but at 4:45! I woke up before the alarm went off and, rather than lay there waiting for it, I got up and got dressed for the gym. When it did go off, The Spouse was surprised to see that I was already dressed for the gym. It felt good to get up. Of course, the brilliant sun outside helped a lot with my motivation.

At the gym, I lifted weights. I did biceps and triceps and legs. I’ll post my exercises in a different post for anyone interested. I will be walking at lunch today, so wanted to focus on strength training this morning. Remember, fat to fit! I haven’t eaten anything bad, and even cut way back on the whipped cream in my morning cappuccino. So far, today is going well!

Fat to Fit @ 57 – Day Two

I had every intention of getting up and going to the gym today. I thought about it, visualized it, and planned for it. And then, I had a ridiculously sleepless night. At midnight, I was still tossing and turning. My usual tricks of reading until I couldn’t keep my eyes open and saying the alphabet backward did nothing to send me into slumberland. In fact, I think the reading actually kept me awake. I finally did nod off, only to awaken in the middle of the night. Oh, wait, I didn’t even fall asleep until the middle of the night. I had turned my clock so that I couldn’t see the time, and was NOT going to look to see what time it was, but I finally just had to know. 3:40 AM. Okay, not bad. The alarm would not go off for another ninety minutes! I snuggled down into my pillow and let the Sandman pull me back into his arms. And then, the alarm sounded. Clearly, it was malfunctioning, because there was no way I had slept for ninety minutes already! But a glance at the clock dispelled that belief. It was indeed 5 AM.

“Okay” I told myself. “Day One… turn on the light. Get out of bed. Get to the gym.” My body did not respond. “Come on! Get up!” My subconscious was shouting. “You will be so angry with yourself if you don’t get up!” Nothing. To my utter horror, my hands reached for the clock (actually, my iPhone), turned off the 5:00 AM alarm, and turned on the 6:30 AM alarm. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING????” my subconscious was screaming. No response. “Oh, sure, you tell the world how you’re going to do this, you’re going to do the things you know you need to do to get into shape, lose the weight, blah, blah, blah, and the first time things get tough, you bail. Some role model you are!” I mentally held my pillow over my subconscious’s face to shut her up. And then Mr. Sandman wrapped his arms around me and pulled me back to sleep. The next time the alarm went off, at the much more tolerable hour of 6:30 AM, I tumbled out of bed, took the dogs outside, and began my day. And yes, I was furious with myself for failing right out of the gate. But my new mantra is, “I will not beat myself up for small transgressions.” That’s a big deal, because I am very, very hard on myself. I’m going to try to give myself a break – but to big a one.

I had planned to ride my bike to work today, too. Alas, my knee was really hurting all night, and I wasn’t sure that it was quite ready to pedal the six miles to work. Besides, the weather forecast was very unsettled, and I really didn’t want to ride home in the rain. As it turns out, it is beautiful outside, and I probably would have had a stellar ride. To make up for it, I walked for just under 2.5 miles at lunch today. The knee is sore, but I can’t just sit and hope it gets better. “A body in motion tends to stay in motion. A body at rest tends to stay at rest,” to quote a famous arthritis drug commercial. I want to stay in motion, thank you very much.

Someone at work brought homemade chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. 🙁 Do you think I could pass them by? You should see the look on my subconscious’s face! She is so disgusted with me! But hey, I didn’t have breakfast today, so I’m counting the oatmeal as breakfast. I did walk, so I probably burned one of them off (oh, I didn’t mention that I had more than one?) I’m planning on a nice salad for dinner, so I’m not beating myself up over this, either.

Tomorrow, I WILL go to the gym. I am going to go to bed at an obscenely early hour so that I get plenty of sleep, and then leap out of bed when that alarm goes off at 5:00 and zip off to the gym, no matter what. In fact, I think I’m going to put my phone across the room so I HAVE to get out of bed to shut it up. That should do the trick. In the meantime, for the rest of the day, I will drink a lot of water, walk around work a lot and take a few trips up and down the stairs – well, maybe only up the stairs (going down really hurts my knee, so I think I’ll take the elevator down) – and eat my big salad for dinner. Today should turn out okay after all.